Friday, September 29, 2017

Weekly Rundown 9.23.17~9.29.17

This week was a little bit of a blur but I am going to try and recall it as best I can.

  Saturday, I went to work and that was pretty much it. So it was a pretty boring day.

  Sunday, we went to church like any typical Sunday except I drove separately so that I could go home early since we went to Nana and Papa's house after church. After I went home and resting for a little bit, I went to work where I spent most of the rest of my night. Then I came home and crashed.

  Monday, I spent the day at home doing all kinds of fun stuff. I did the dishes, did my laundry, had a sock mating party, picked up the living room a little and also picked up my room a bit. That was basically my day of doing all kinds of household stuff.

 Tuesday, I woke up a little late, ate breakfast, went and picked up my check, put it in the bank, paid mom and then went to work for the remainder of my night before coming home and going to bed.

  Wednesday, I woke up really late (around noon) took the dogs out, at breakfast/lunch rested for an hour and then went to work until after 9 then came home, uploaded my vlog and went to sleep because honestly I was exhausted.

 Yesterday,  I spent the day doing a little bit of running around. First, I woke up, took a shower and went to Bible Study. From there I went to get something to eat and then went to my massage. Then I went to Walmart to pick up a few things and then headed home and relaxed. In other words, I passed out on the couch for almost two hours. When I woke up dad was home and we ate dinner and then I went back to church and hung out for a while. Then I uploaded my vlog while reading on my kindle app on my phone before going to bed.

  Today, I went to get my hair cut, and later I am going to get gas and go to work for another fun-filled day at the factory. LOL

 So that's basically been my week. I hope you enjoy reading this and hearing about my weekly "Adventures".

  Keep on Being Awesome,
      Cass

Monday, September 25, 2017

Mental Health Update 9.25.17

So this week I had a trial and error with my mood stabilizer and discovered that I have way more energy without it, the sad part is I think I might need it for the voices, but I'm not entirely sure. So I have been debating a few things this week like dropping my mood stabilizer and starting journaling again. I actually was thinking about it last night and want to start a bullet journal. I am actually planning on buying some new washi tape and a new notebook specifically for it. I just need to decide what I want to put in it.
  I know I want to do a month at a glance things and lists, but I don't know what else to put in it. lol, Should I start doing fitness and working out more? Should I start tracking my food and water in there? Should I start tracking my mental health in there? Should I do all of the above? I honestly have no idea.
  Maybe it should be a mental health bullet journal with stuff that helps my mental health. Like goals and lists to keep me on track and tell how my mood has been at the beginning of the day. Try to listen to my body and check in with my journal to see how my mood progresses throughout the day. That sounds like a good idea, and then maybe add some fitness to it.
  I don't know, but it all sounds good in theory, it's just a matter of putting it all together. Thank you for reading this. Comment if you have any ideas for me.

   Keep on being Awesome,
        Cass

Friday, September 22, 2017

Weekly Rundown 9.16.17~9.22.17

This week was a little bit of a trial and error week but it all worked out in the end.

 Saturday, after having laid down some ground rules for Bryon the night before, he decided that he wasn't going to talk to me all day. Which was quite fine with me as I wanted to relax and get things done anyways. After a few hours of relaxing and getting to sleep in AND take a nap, I went to work and actually got to come home pretty early for a Saturday (around 9ish). Then I came home and went to sleep.

  Sunday: Now here's where the trial and error really began. I started taking my Latuda (my mood stabilizer) in the morning instead of at night. I haven't had any good experiences trying that before but I figured I'd give it another go. Well, as luck would have it, I started crashing REALLY hard in the middle of Sunday School. I was getting light headed and was so tired that I couldn't even keep my eyes open. The scary part is I had coffee before church. So I should have been ready and raring to go. The sleepiness continued through main service and lunch at Nana and Papa's house.(Fun Fact: Bryon was supposed to meet me at church and then come to Nana and Papa's house with me and then after I laid down the law, he didn't speak to me and not to my surprise, never showed) Then I came home and napped for about 30 minutes. Which helped a little, then I went to work and had some sugared beverages which really helped wake me up. After work, I came home and crashed hard.

  Monday, I had second thoughts about taking the Latuda in the morning, but then decided to give it a second chance, and took it again. I was foggy all morning but still managed to clean the room with Penny's litter box, do the mountain of dishes, and do my laundry before crashing hard for FOUR HOURS. I slept from about 1:30-2:00PM until 6:30 PM. The only time I woke up was to take the dogs out at around 4PM, but then I crashed again after we came back inside. After I woke up, I watched Superwoman's live broadcast, and then Dad came home and we watched "Knight Rider" until we both got tired again and went to bed.

  Tuesday was a rough day. I decided to give the Latuda ANOTHER chance and took it again in the morning. BAD IDEA! I then went to wait for my paycheck and help Mom detail her mom's car. Well, as I had for the past two days previous. I started getting really tired on the way home from Gram's house, and so I crashed in the car and then slept some more when we arrived at home. Then I had to go to work and I had to go fill up my car with gas before that. Let me just say it was NOT pretty. I spent most of the ride to the gas station and work trying to keep my eyes from closing on me. Then we I got to the gas station I had the brilliant idea to get a couple of sugared beverages to try and help wake me up. Well, I drank the one with the most caffeine on the way to work, and I started getting kind of shaky. Then I drank another similarly caffeinated one when I got to work and felt like I was going to pass out for about twenty minutes. After that, it felt like my stomach was going to bust out of my abdomen. Then I took some deep breaths, thinking that it may have been anxiety, and it all leveled out around two hours after I had arrived at work. Suffice it to say, I was not glad that the night was busy AF and I was on fryer station. I was tired all night long, and I just wanted to go home and sleep. Thankfully my coworker lets me leave a few minutes before I was supposed to since we had everything done, and I went home and crashed.

  Wednesday I was NOT about to let that medication ruin another day, and I didn't take my Latuda in the morning. The weird thing is I had an amazing amount of energy, I didn't take a nap, and I was even in a pretty good mood considering I didn't get a nap. Then I went to work... (dun dun dun) Everything was seemingly okay until my one coworker realized it was just going to be four of us. Then she started avoiding the phone and getting short with our manager, and when he picked at her about it while we were slow she said she was "More anti-people than normal". So basically, I spent the entire night trying to fill my station, keep up with my own orders, AND answer the phone 99% of the night. Needless to say, I was more than ready when the manager told me I could go home. I was exhausted and promptly went home, wound down, and crashed.

 Yesterday I went to Bible Study/Prayer meeting in the morning like I usually do, and then, after spending the afternoon trying to update my phone and get it backed up, I went to court for Simi's license being late. I took care of that with only a minimum fee and then went home to do the dishes and relax for the rest of the night.

  Today was set to be a day where I didn't have anything planned but then the orthopedic doctor's office called and asked if I wanted to switch my appointment to today at 3:20 PM. So naturally I said yes, and I'm heading out there with Mom a little early so she can do the banking and stuff. So, it's going to be a good day today.

   Thank you for reading and I hope I didn't bore you too much.

  Keep on being Awesome,
     Cass



Monday, September 18, 2017

Writing Update

So my writing as honestly gotten a little behind lately, but I am really trying to get back to it, especially since I paid Microsoft so I can work on Lucy again. I've also been getting more ideas together for Bell Mort which has been officially renamed Bella Nyx Mortum. She's not too crazy about me knowing her full name, but oh well. She's named after her mother which is Isabella Mortum. She is also known as Nyx. So, I'm trying to collaborate with my sister on that (cause Isabella is her character) and trying to get Lucy to work with me. It's a long and annoying process being a writer. Lol *sighs* I hope you all enjoy reading this, and I hope someone out there can relate.


  Keep On Being Awesome,
      Cass

Friday, September 15, 2017

Weekly Rundown 9.9.17 ~ 9.15.17

 This week has been just a tiny bit crazy only because I've made a new friend who is sickeningly sweet and wants to talk all the damn time. Anyways, let's get started on my week shall we?

  Saturday, I relaxed at home most of the day, and then went to work from 4 PM until 10PM. So as you can imagine it was a pretty boring typical day.

  Sunday, I went to church like normal with nothing out of the ordinary happening, except that I was on the sound system this week. Which was pretty nice. Then we had a fellowship after church with Pizza and cupcakes. Then we came home, took a nap and I went to work from about 5 PM until 10 PM. After that it was your typical boring night where I upload the vlog and go to bed.

  Monday is where things pick up and get a little more interesting. I spent most of the day at home chilling, but the night before I coworker asked me to switch Tuesday night for Monday night, so I ended up working from about 4 PM until around 8 PM. Which is shorter than my usual Tuesday shift but that's okay I honestly didn't mind the break. After that I came home and watched some Knight Rider with dad before putting up the Vlog and going to bed.

  Then Tuesday, because I worked the night before I had the day off. So, I went out and got my paycheck at around 12 PM (ish) like I usually do. Then mom and I went to the bank to put money in, and so she could take money out to pay the car payment. Then we went to Silver Creek and got my favorite Sundae EVER which is called the "Purple People Eater" and it's from the Frosty Treat in Irving. Then we went to get something substantial to eat at KFC/Taco Bell in Dunkirk (we also stopped there because dad wanted a couple of their slushies). Then we went and saw dad at the job site, and after went to Walmart to pick up a few things. Then we went home and the rest of the night was pretty boring. I basically spent the night at home video messaging my new friend. Who, honestly seems like everything I could want in a man except that he seems too sweet. Which isn't a bad thing, but it makes me quite anxious that I won't be able to live up to his expectations.

  Anyways, Wednesday I went to counseling really early in the morning (I had to be there by 9 AM) and then came home, took a nap, and went to work from 3 PM until just after 9:30 PM. Which is a long day for me and my new friend (who seems to desperately want to be more) was messaging me most of the night and almost flipped shit on me because I didn't reply to him. *rolls eyes* Anyway, once I got home I video messaged him for a while and then went to sleep.

  Yesterday, I spent the day mostly running around and trying to get two days worth of Vlogs posted because I got really tired talking to my friend and forgot to upload them. I went to my physical in Hamburg at 10:15 AM and then came home for a half an hour. Then left to go to my Psychiatric appointment in Jamestown that was at 1:30 PM so it was a little crazy and then I went to work from 4 PM until after 10 PM. (Not my usual shift, but my cousin Kim had something going on at College and asked me to work for her)

  Today, I am currently at the doctors in Irving with my sister, and then I go home for a little bit before going to lunch at a church member's house. (And possibly going to talk to her neighbor about Christ) I am also running on about 6 hours of sleep instead of my usual 10-12 so I am kind of tired and not sure if I am going to have time to nap today. UGH!

  Anyways, that's my week in a nutshell. I hope you all had a good week and hope it wasn't as crazy as mine was.

  Keep on being Awesome,
     Cass

Friday, September 8, 2017

Weekly Rundown 9.2.17-9.8.17

So this week I had quite a bit of fun injuring myself.

  Saturday, I relaxed for a while and then went to work, which was a little crazy as per it's usual.
 Sunday, I went to church in the morning, got a good nap in and then the fun began. On my way to work I noticed that I was running dangerously low on gas and I wasn't sure I was going to even make it to work and worse yet: I had no money to put into my gas tank to make it home. So as soon as I arrived at work, I called my mom and she and my dad decided that they would come and put gas in my car after they finished their church service. Having that taken care of, I quickly went into work since I was almost late. I settle in and then walk into the pizza room (My station for the night) I open the door to the oven and fricken burn my wrist. Yep, first time burning myself in a while, but it hurt really bad and yeah... it was still my shift in the pizza room so I had to work all night with a burn on my wrist that progressively got worse as the night went on. Then I went home and crashed.
  Monday was Labor Day here in the US, and I spent the day relaxing and doing chores around the house that I needed to get done and had been putting off.The burn I got the day before was not healing like I'd hoped though and was swollen underneath the wound.
  Tuesday, it had stormed Monday night and so work was without power, but I had fun and went out running around with mom. Then came home and crashed... HARD. The burn on my wrist was now scabbed over but looked a little green and I started to become a little concerned as it REALLY hard to move my wrist up and down. Which is probably due to the swelling.
  Wednesday, I ran into work early, grabbed my check, put it in the bank, went and got drinks, and then went and waited outside work for a few minutes before heading into a little bit of a rough night for me. First, I sliced mozzarella cheese on the slicer and ate some. For those of you that are wondering why this is a problem, I suffer from IBS-D and soft cheese is one of my worst triggers. So as you can imagine the night could only get worse as I had diarrhea most of the night. Then when I was running to the bathroom yet again, I stubbed my toe on the rack where we keep our little bags of chips. Then my one coworker was being a bitch (and thus irritating me)  most of the night, so I was not in good spirits when I left there that night a whole hour and a half LATER than I was supposed to. On top of that, the burn now hurts worse than ever and is really affecting how I move my wrist, which has me a bit more nervous.
  Thursday, I was hoping to get some relaxing done so I made time for that in between going to Bible Study twice. The second time only because my mom made me feel guilty about it. Which sucks, because I would have felt better if I'd stayed home and meditated or something like that. We put a band-aid on the burn last night and I took it off before I took a shower and it seemed to feel better.
  Anyway, today is Friday once again, and I am taking Mickey Moose to get a hair cut before coming home doing the dishes really quick and then going out shopping with my sister. It should be a good day. Maybe I'll do some meditating with some incense and my Chakra stones while I wait for Mickey to be done with his hair cut. lol

   Keep on Being Awesome,
      Cass


  PS: Thank you so much for reading this. I hope you enjoyed it and it wasn't too dull for you.

Monday, September 4, 2017

Mental Health Update

I'm not going to lie, this passed week has been a little rough on me mentally. Especially since I hurt my foot on Wednesday. I mean, after that it was all downhill. I honestly think my depression has been hitting me pretty damn hard this week. I have no motivation, my thoughts have been terribly sad due to the fact that I have no motivation, and I feel tired all the time. I am honestly glad that I don't have to put up with this much longer. Since I see my counselor and my psychiatrist next week. But I am trying my hardest to hold on until then. Other than that, I had a pretty good week especially since my favorite weather is finally here! I honestly love autumn and I wish it could be that temperature all year round. 

   Keep On Being Awesome,
     Cass

Friday, September 1, 2017

Weekly Rundown 8-26-17~9-1-17

This week was a bit of a let down, but I'll break it down for you.

 Saturday was my day off and I was supposed to go to the Celtic Festival and by the time we got there everything was being taken down. So we went out to eat at Sakura with dad, and then we went to Bath and Body works.
  Sunday, I woke up so tired I could barely keep my eyes open, and after church was called into work early so I couldn't even take a nap to get my energy back up. So all through work I was tired as Hell, and wanted to go home.
  Monday, was a nice day and I relaxed most of the day.Which was nice.
 Tuesday, I went and picked up my paycheck early, then went and took my car to the shop to get the check engine light turned off. Which they did. Then mom and I went out to ice cream and BK for lunch. Then I went home and relaxed for a little while before I went to work. Where I closed and then came home and crashed.
  Wednesday, I took my car to the shop early to get it fixed, and then we went to Walmart and went home and relaxed until I went to work at three. While I was at work I accidentally kicked the table with my big toe and injured it badly. I went home a few HOURS later and spent the night tossing and turning with pain in my toe and foot.
  Thursday, I took Simi to the vet in the morning, then came home and relaxed until Bible Study later in the day.
  Today, I went to the dr for my toe and the dr thinks it's a stained tendon. Which is not what I wanted to hear since I have to work Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Which means I'm working all weekend with a bum foot. So now I'm waiting in Urgent Care to get an X-Ray of my foot, which I PRAY isn't broken.

    It was a bad week, but I'm determined to have a better one this week.

     Keep on Being Awesome,
      Cass