Weekly Log 12.29.17~1.4.18

Well, since this year is coming to a close we'll see how this week decides to treat me.

 Friday, I woke up with a headache which wasn't fun, but at least it wasn't a migraine so I was able to get over it shortly after I went to work. Anyways, I drove to South Dayton and then all the way over to the Reservation with my aforementioned headache, and then drove home and relaxed for about 45 minutes before heading to work. Work in itself wasn't too bad. The beginning was a little bit of a cluster storm but after that, it went much smoother than I could have hoped for. Then I went home, uploaded my vlog and crashed.

  Saturday, I was supposed to get a haircut, but the weather was too bad in the morning, so I stayed home and slept in until just before noon when I received a text from my cousin/boss asking me to come in at three. Which was fine with me. So, I went in to work at three and stayed there working until about eleven. Then I took some food to my Aunt (because her kids were assholes and wouldn't take it), and came home to upload the vlog and crash.

  Sunday, was the last day of 2017. I woke up early like I usually do, took a shower, ate breakfast, and went off to church. Church went normally, and afterward, we had dinner downstairs followed by a little Bible study. Then I went and picked up drinks at the store and went home to relax for only 20 minutes before I had to lit off to work. Work was... horribly busy and we ran out of a lot of things and some of our coworkers were more than annoying. So it was practically a night from Hell and I don't really want to repeat it. Anyways, after that, I went home, uploaded the vlog and relaxed for the rest of the night.

  Monday, I woke up late and relaxed until dad came home. Then we left and went to Walmart, then went to Nana's house and hang out for a while. Then we left after supper and had a great night watching NCIS before we went to bed.

  Tuesday, I woke up at my usual time, then took the dogs out, ate breakfast, meditated took a shower and that's about where my productive day ended. I sat down to let the water get warm again after my shower and upload my vlog, and I fell asleep... for TWO hours.Then I woke up and went to work. After work, I came home, ended the vlog and went to sleep.

  Wednesday, I woke up at my normal time, took the dogs out, ate breakfast, and (finally) did the dishes that have been piling up for days. Then I rested for about half an hour and went to work. Work was... normal for Wednesday, but that means it SUCKED. I had a rough night, and then came home to rest, upload my vlog and go to bed.

 Thursday, I woke up early took a shower, then I went out to my nerve test in Hamburg. Then we went to Starbucks before going out to Mom's appointment with the TMJ specialist. Then we went to JoAnn Fabrics to pick up a couple things that mom needed, and then we went to Walmart to pick up some things that both of us needed. After we got out of Walmart, I called the work and found out my check was at work. So, we headed home via Gowanda then we went through South Dayton so that mom could pick up her prescription. Then we went home and after resting for a couple of hours, the pastor of the church I go to text mom and told us there was no service that night. So, we stayed home and watched the last bit of our NCIS DVDs.


  Thank you for reading and I hope you had a good week,
          Cass

My Thoughts on the New Year

 So, the day you are reading this it's the First day of 2018. Congratulations! You made it through another trip around the sun. Which should be a happy occasion, but for me as an Empath, life is a little chaotic emotionally still. The new year brings its new hopes, new dreams, and of course the ever annoying new disappointments and let-downs. Which is very emotionally exhausting to think about for someone like me who tends to overthink EVERY LITTLE DETAIL. So, just because it is a very exhausting time doesn't mean I have to sit around moping and wallowing in self-pity. So, I am attempting to get more organized and try to self-care more in 2018. I have a bullet journal and I am definitely going to start adding more things like "exercise" and "drink more water". These are just some of the little things I am going to start doing to make my life a little better.
   I hope you make some healthier choices in the new year.


  Keep On Being Awesome,
    Cass

Weekly Log 12.22.17~12.28.17

  Well, this week was off to a rough start. Friday, I woke up kind of early which was nice. Then I ate breakfast, made my bed, got dressed, changed the countdown on my door and then did the dishes. After the dishes (which made my foot hurt SUPER bad), I took a nap and then headed off to get drinks before going to work. Work actually went fairly well other than me wanting to chop my foot off with a knife.  After that, I came home, uploaded my vlog and went to bed.

   Saturday, I spent most of the day resting my foot, but as I put my boot on I strained my foot, hurting it worse so I hurt myself. Work was AWFUL! My foot hurt so bad that I was seeing stars and I left early to go to the ER to get it re-looked at. (It was fine, but it still hurts) Then I came home, uploaded my vlog and went to bed.

  Sunday was a frigging crazy day. I woke up and took a shower like I usually do, but this is where the similarities end. First, I walked out the door to drive myself to church. Then, I got to church and realized I forgot my breakfast so I ate some popcorn that I bought yesterday that was in my car. Then, I did my usual church thing. Then, I left church a little early to go to work. I worked for about 5.5 hours and then came home and crashed.

  Monday, was Christmas, and first, I woke up, got dressed, ate breakfast, and then we opened presents at home. Then, we got everything packed up and went to Nana's house where we spent the day opening presents, eating some amazing food that my Nana made, and talking a lot. Basically having a very nostalgic Christmas. It was good. Then, we came home, watched a Christmas movie that was totally predictable and totally mushy. Then, I uploaded the vlog and crashed.

  Tuesday, I stayed home all day until work since the weather was crappy. Then I went to work, worked for a while, and then came home and crashed.

  Wednesday, I woke up a little late, came downstairs, and relaxed until I had to leave for work at about 2:15pm. I got to work, picked up my paycheck, then headed off to the bank. While I was at work picking up my check my aunt asked me if I could pick up coffee for her at Tim Hortons. So, I went to the bank, deposited my check, went to Tim Hortons, then came back to work. By the time I got back the phone was ringing off the hook and the frigging shoved me in the pizza room. Then after my other coworkers arrived I was smashed on to the fryer station with no clue what was going on and a little bit of animosity towards my aunt. (Actually, she was driving me to drink... almost literally.) Then I suffered on the fryer station all damn night and my aunt drove me crazy until around 7pm when she finally left and I could feel like an adult again. Basically, I was NOT able to leave until just after 11pm (3p-11p shift), then I came home and crashed HARD, but not actually falling asleep until after 1a.

  Thursday, was definitely a better day. I woke up at 9a to text my mom and tell her that I wasn't going to morning Bible Study, then went back to sleep until 11a. Then I woke up, went to the bathroom, took the dogs out, and ate breakfast. Then, I went upstairs, folded the clothes in my basket, gathered up the clothes on my floor, and took them downstairs. Then I did my laundry and rested all day. Then I went to Bible Study with mom and dad. Then we went to CVS to get dad some Nyquil because he's feeling a little under the weather. Then we came home, I uploaded the vlog from Wednesday and went to bed.

  Thank you for reading this, I hope you enjoy reading about my weeks and my struggles. I am hoping that by typing these things out that someone will get something out of it.

   Keep on Being Awesome,
     Cass

Weekly Log 12.16.17~12.21.17

 Okay, this week got off to a GREAT start.

  Saturday, I woke up a little early took the dogs out got breakfast and took a nap until 12:30p when I got woken up by mom and she had me go out and warm up the car so we could leave for the concert in Buffalo. Dad came home shortly before 1p and then we headed out to the Trans-Siberian Orchestra concert which we made it just in time for because the traffic and parking situation were absolutely INSANE. Then after the concert (which was amazing as always), we headed over to our traditional daddy-daughter date dinner place: Red Robin. Then, after dinner, we walked the mall and bought a few Christmas gifts. Then at 9p we left the mall (since it was closing) and headed over to the theater where we had tickets to see the new Star Wars movie, and we waited until 10:15p to go into the movie (which was starting at 10:30). (The Movie was EPIC by the way) We left the movie about 1a and didn't get home until 2a, and I promptly crashed.

 Sunday, I did NOT want to wake up. (Since I only got five hours of sleep, this was no surprise) I rolled out of bed at 8:15a took a shower, at breakfast and then scooted off to church. Sunday school was a tiny bit crazier than usual because for some odd reason the kids were wired for sound, and of course, I was still really tired from lack of sleep the night before. After church, we went out to the mall in Lakewood to my FAVORITE Chinese place called Sakura. Then I napped on the hour ride back home before I changed and scooted off to work. Work went surprisingly well considering I came into a station that had barely anything in it, and no wings tubbed either. Basically, if I hadn't had two days off before that I would have been really pissed off at the way the station was left for me. Thankfully, I had a great day the day before and was in good spirits. I did complain about it though to the people who were there the day before and could have prevented that from happening. But, unfortunately, the crew during the day were evil and thus, my night was not as good as it could have been. But it wasn't horrible. I then came home edited and uploaded the vlog from Saturday, and went to bed.

  Monday, I woke up a little late and was having a fairly good day until I almost stepped on one of the dogs and slid down 5 stairs, ended up with my foot pinned back underneath me. Once I stopped falling, I could barely walk and after much effort was able to make it to the couch. After waiting for mom for about 30 minutes, I forced myself to try and walk again (thankfully, I was able to) and I went to the bathroom, started my laundry and then took my ass back to the couch to rest and wait for mom. Another 30 minutes later mom came home and took me to urgent care in Gowanda. After a couple of hours and three x-ray pictures, they concluded that my foot was (thankfully) not broken and only bruised. Then we came home, made dinner, rested and generally went to bed.

 Tuesday, I woke up feeling like someone had run over my foot with their car, but otherwise was in good spirits. I got dressed, made my bed, went downstairs, ate breakfast and then headed out to my psychiatric appointment with mom. After my appointment, we went to Walmart and then mom took me home while she went to her appointment for the car to get snow tires. After I took the dogs out and ate lunch, I took a nap. Then I went to work which SUCKED HARD because my foot is still messed up from falling on Monday. Then I came home, ended my vlog and crashed.

 Wednesday, I woke up late. My foot was still sore, but it appears that the bruise is not getting any worse so that's good. Anyways, I ate breakfast, took a shower, iced my foot and then left the house, headed for work.I first stopped at the store in South Dayton where I picked up my drinks for work. Then I continued on to the gas station so that I could finish filling up my car with gas. Then I went to work for about 7 hours (3pm - 10pm). Then I promptly came home and crashed after icing my foot, taking my meds, and uploading my vlog.

 Thursday, I took it easy all day. I basically stayed on the couch and read most of the day. I also took a nap and decorated my little Christmas tree in my room. Then I went to Bible Study with mom and dad, read while they practiced and then came home, uploaded my vlog and went to sleep.

  Thank you for reading this. I know this week was kind of boring, but don't worry. Next week is Christmas and then we start the new year the week after. So it will be good times from here on out.

   Keep on being Awesome,
      Cass

Weekly Rundown 12.9.17~12.14.17

 Okay, hopefully, this week won't be as bad as last week.


   Saturday, I woke up and had to do about 5 days worth of dishes which were definitely NOT organized, and that totally pissed me off. Then when I tried to catch a break, my AUNT frigging texts me as I am pulling out of the driveway asking if I am on my way yet. I was already pissed off at mom for not helping me with the dishes, now I am dealing with my pissed off aunt as well. Needless to say, it was not a relaxing drive to work that day. Then I got to work and they were busy AF. So I had to jump in and help right away which sent my anxiety through the roof. So that threw off my whole day, and then on top of that two of my coworkers came in at 5 and one coworker never showed up. So, it was a stressful hour or so of my aunt bitching at me for not being there early and bitching about the other coworker not showing up. But after the dinner rush was over (about 8 or so) it was a much easier night, and I was thankfully able to leave just after 11pm. Then I came home, uploaded my vlog and crashed hard.

 Sunday, I was woken up a little earlier than normal. Then I took a shower and quickly ate breakfast so I could get ready to go because we had to pick up my sister since her car was still in the shop. Then at church, my sister and I played "In the Bleak Midwinter" for special music during the main service. After church we went to the store in South Dayton, then dropped my sister off at home, then we went home and had Turkey Gravy and biscuits for lunch. Then I went straight to work since they asked me to come in early, which was a BIG mistake on my part. Work was busy as HELL, and I spent the whole time running around like a chicken with my head cut off until after 8 PM. So, needless to say, I was tired when I left at almost 10 PM. So, I went home and crashed.

  Monday, I stayed home and looked for my otter box phone case all day while doing laundry, relaxing and doing the dishes. It was a nice and quiet day.

 Tuesday, I woke up before 10 AM and then ate breakfast, got ready and headed out towards Derby for counseling. First, we stopped in Gowanda to drop off my car. Second, we went to the bank in Gowanda. Third, we stopped at the gas station so mom could put gas in her car. Fourth, we stopped at Dollar General in Farnam to kill some time. Fifth, we stopped at Family Dollar in Derby, because mom forgot some things that she needed when we stopped at Dollar General. Finally, we stopped at Tim Hortons, also in Derby, to get some lunch. Then I went to counseling. Then mom took me back to work and I got started a little early because why not. Then, when I left work it took forever to get home. Then I uploaded my vlog and crashed.

 Wednesday, was a little bit of a shit show. It started when I woke up with a sore abdomen and some diarrhea (which continued throughout the whole damn day). Then it got worse and I got nauseous. Lastly, I went to work and two of my other coworkers were sick. But they couldn't stay all night because they were puking. So, both of them were sent home early and I had to stay until almost close. So, I had an eight-hour shift with diarrhea and a little bit of nausea, and I had to pee a lot. The worst fact about my day: It was snowing all damn day. So, I basically came home and crashed.

 Thursday, I spent the day running around like crazy, First, I let myself sleep in and didn't go to morning Bible Study. Then, while I was filling my pills my boss/cousin text me and asked me to work for her that night so that she could go to her son's chorus concert that he just told her about the day before. *sad face* SO, instead of going to practice for my mom's play, I had to go to work. But before that, I had an appointment for the car to get an oil change and a sensor looked at. Then I went shopping for my dad's Christmas present which means I am officially DONE Christmas shopping. Then I went to work for five hours and came home to crash.

  Thank you for reading this. I hope you have had a good 6 days and they didn't go as strangely crazy as mine did.

  Keep on Being Awesome,
          Cass

Health Update

I was thinking about what to post today, and I figured I would give you guys a physical health update.

 So, my asthma is doing well, and haven't had too many problems with that yet this winter which is nice. My PCOS has been doing very well since I got my IUD put in October before this past October. Then there are my muscles. Most of you probably don't know that I have been having problems with my neck and shoulder, but it has been going on for months. This past month or so it has moved into my opposite shoulder as well as my left side of my collarbone, and up the front of my neck. It is tough because I don't know if the front of my neck and collarbone are actually muscle or if it's something else because nothing and I do mean nothing takes away the pain when it's there. So basically, I've had to suffer with it and deal with it.

   That's how my physical health has been lately. Thanks for reading.


  Keep on Being Awesome,
         Cass

Weekly Rundown 12.1.17~12.8.17

 This week has not started out on a good note.

 Saturday, I had a good day of relaxation, until I went to work... that is when shit hit the fan. First, I had to work with my Aunt, who bitches constantly, and had to come in EARLIER than everyone else, just to deal with her. Then if that wasn't enough to drive me up the wall, my one coworker was a total bitch and left BEFORE me when I had been there an hour earlier than everyone else. If that wasn't bad enough, I was sore all over my shoulders AND I was there for 8 hours straight with no real break. Needless to say, I was a little more than upset and cried all the way home. (No joke) Once I got there, I basically took my medication and crashed... hard.

  Sunday, I woke up so tired and feeling rather weak from working so long the night before. But I pressed on and stayed awake (surprisingly) all through church. Then I got home had some leftover pizza for lunch, then crashed for about two hours before heading off to get drinks for work. On the way to work from the reservation where I got my drinks, I got pulled over for following the car in front of me too closely. *eye roll* Anyways, he let me off with a warning, and I only ended up being a little later than usual and not totally late for work. Work then went surprisingly well. It was slow and I was able to get everything done,  plus the pop cooler, by 9:15. Then they (my other two coworkers) let me go just before 9:30 and I came home, took my meds, uploaded my vlog, then crashed for the night.

  Monday, I got a lot done at home. First, I woke up before noon (not long before noon, but long enough). I ate breakfast, sat down for maybe 5 minutes, then I went upstairs, got dressed, collected the laundry, and brought it downstairs. Then I started the laundry, did the dishes, and filled my pills. After the dishes were done, I called the Pharmacy, Jamestown Psychiatric, and Community Concern. Then I sat and played Mario Run for the rest of the afternoon. Then I ran with mom to pick up my meds, then ran to get water and drop off the jugs for milk, Then we came home. Shortly after that, dad came home we had dinner and I crashed for the night.

 Tuesday, was actually a pretty boring day, minus the fact that my paycheck didn't come in so I had to wait until Wednesday to get it. I basically spent the day resting with my puppies, then I went to work at 3 and spent the night at work filling my station and then I had to slice some produce. Other than that it was a pretty dull day.

 Wednesday, I thought I was going to have a pretty chill day, but it turned out life had other plans. I decided to try to sleep in a little, but then my mom woke me up just after 11 AM and asked if I wanted to go shopping. I said yes, and we got ready. Then just after 12 PM we left to go to Walmart, then came back, put the Turkey in the oven, relaxed for a half hour, and then I went to work. Work was a little cray cray. First, my aunt didn't want to leave when she was supposed to. Second, I felt like my abdomen was about to burst from the pain. Third, my one coworker was being a real bitch and was pissing off almost everyone else. *sigh* I'm pretty sure something was wrong with her, but I didn't want to get into it because she is a real drama queen. So, it was slow and I left earlier than normal to put gas in my car, then I came home and crashed.

  Thursday, started out a little crazy. First, I didn't want to wake up, so I got up late. Then, I was late getting out the door to head to Bible study so I ended up walking in right as they were about to start. The service went by without interruption, then my sister took a long time getting to me because her car was having trouble and she had to call AAA. Then, after we practiced, AAA still hadn't shown up, and I had to sit and wait for them while her husband (who originally came to help her) went back to work. Then my sister called AAA... they canceled her order because her husband didn't answer ONCE. Needless to say, she was NOT happy with AAA, and she had someone else sent out to her. AAA text me shortly after she got off the phone with them. Then, the driver called me within ten minutes and was there within fifteen. Shortly, thereafter I went to see my sister and waited until she was done with work before I finally got to go home, but it would never be that easy. We left Kennedy, NY and it was dark but not even snowing. We got to Conewango Valley, NY and it was snowing and there was snow on the road. By the time we arrived in South Dayton, NY it was snowing like crazy and there was about an inch of snow on the road! Needless to say (if you know me at all) my anxiety was through the roof all the way home, and it took me at least twice the time it usually does to get home. When I got home, I took an anti-anxiety pill and crashed.

  Friday, I had a crazy day. First of all, it was snowing all day, so the trip to work was CRAZY AF and then I had a rougher than usual night at work before coming home and crashing.